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The Inadequacy of Breathing "When we kiss it is hungry and full of want that is silent and insinuated. I want him like oxygen in a world where it matters."

The Headache That Alan Levy Gave Me   "I glare at Alan Levy over my apple juice, as he leaves the house that morning, taking the left overs from last night’s dinner. He and I do not share words. We have dignity."

Right of Abode   "A home life chewed away by insects, tiny things, invisible things, that worm their way through conversation; parasites in a clean white living room. They grow, they multiply, until they’ve eaten away at everything concrete and there are holes in the matter you once called the dinner table. "

Vienna   "I’m leaving for Vienna. I’m leaving you for Vienna. You are hearing it for the first time, knowing you should have heard it all those times, would have heard it--if only you were listening."

Why You Should Never Talk to Strange Boys   "I started thinking of him sitting in class the next day, telepathically trying to bring this teacher to his knee's for his SERIOUS MISJUDGEMENT OF NARCOLEPSY, just staring at him, just staring at him with those flailing possessed arms, saying things like "WIDE OPEN" and "JESUS."

The Things I Tell Myself "I’ve become an expert at this. I have the split tongue of a bomb-squad negotiator, the discretion and lithe of an escape artist, and the distinct inadequacy of a toddler in college."

Livian "The police will have to come and take her away, and they will ask why she’s cold, and how long it been, and he will have to think of answers for these questions. Why she’s cold. How she got here."

Scream "You will close your eyes and pray like a child for nothing, to feel nothing, to know nothing of what you know. You will pray till you are on your knees, small fists clutching the carpet, and you will wait and you will wait and you will wait until it all passes and you will know nothing but the guilt of handing off your responsibility to fix this to some unnamed, unknown source."