Love Poetry

When you’re done loving me.

Will you still think of me
Long after you’ve loved me
And your lips are dry, and your heart is full
When at the same length, we’re both out of reach
And you tell your new lover, that you loved me least

Will you still love me, when you’re all done loving me?
Will you still love me, long after I leave?

And not minutes thereafter, you’re miles away
And cursing my name, and cursing the day
That you came to know me
That you lay beside me

Well the day had been long,
So you pillowed your chest
Could you tell me how long
Two lovers can rest?
With the weight against breath
Or a crick in the neck?

I can’t help think in the end
When we finally stand
You will kiss my cold cheek,
And I will pull off this band

We will agree not to speak
Or mention what lovers do
But against all the rules
I’ll still think of you

My Reason

I tell you that I lie
I feel
A lot more than I say

When you whisper
“I can’t love you more”
I close my eyes,
I look away

Is this for real,
You’ll ask of me
Is this for real, or not?

I promise I feel all this too
Through each tidal wave we’ve fought

I feel the aches of the first crush
I feel the swooping soar
Each breath still caught inside my throat
Each burning, blistering pore

I feel the stretching of my ways
To allow for every slight
The brush against the ribs I lay betwixt
Each silent night

In sleep, I know you stare at me
In dreams it rinses me through
Dirty water of my monologues
Rain my reason over you

The Wool

She’s winds herself into your skin
And when you freeze, it’s her within
Biding her time till you let go
So she can call you all her own

I did not comprehend the glare
That shone down on my relief
Or the condescending tone
That masked all my belief
And little had I ever risen
Up against such ease
Unwrapped your hands around my wrist
And got down on my knees

And there I found the distance was as
Hard as any war
To keep myself at arms length
And treat love like a chore
For no woman wants-- to be found out
And no man-- to be adored
So down my head went with all
My hope she was ignored

Your hands are held, your heart is full
You sink until you feel the wool
What’s over eyes, it’s dark and then
You can believe I’m your’s again.

Incentive

Did you know that you’re the incentive for every breath?
Every bone I grew for you
Every knick that ever bled
Was in wait of love from you

No man has ever touched these lips
No hand has lingered on this skin
Or done what you have done to me
No man has ever been let in

For you I have laid on my own
On sheets I swear were made of stone
And cold were the limbs grown for you
From the skin through to the bone

For you I’ve been preserved so well
For you I’ve been a sealed design
Unraveled I will come for you
So your lips alone might call me, “Mine!”

Cured needless of these salts and scents
That aid the perishing from decline
I am kept just as I am
Till our lives can intertwine

A thousand year alone I’d wait
And like a child never grow
Just so that I might see your face
So you might know what I still know

That every bone I’ve grown is yours,
And these two lips, and these two eyes,
And these four limbs, what keeps my sins,
All within is all your prize

Inside

You’re not leaving anything
I’ve lived so long beneath your skin
I’ll still be licking your muscles from the inside
You can’t kick out what feeds within

And I’ve been cozy in your chest, my dear
And I’ve been drinking all the wine
That you poured to be rid of me
I absorb and you survive

And when you kiss her I will kiss her too
And when you speak I’ll tug each cord
And when you breathe I breathe it too
To taste each breathe I’ve so adored

I was warned that this would be:
You’d love less than I’d believed
So now I reap what I perceive:
Your love always belonged to me

I will sleep and you would hold me like
The womb you never filled
And I will wake inside this place
To sustain what must rebuild

And when I leave I’ll cut a hole
And tear out with heavy strides
Unrepaired, I’ll leave you there
Just as you have always been---
With nothing at all inside

Umbilical

Don’t I love how we always agree
What once was I now is We,
And umbilical-ly I’m living through
The very air he breathes for me?

What I want is past the point
And what I feel is locked and stored
In a quart-refrigerated,
In a frozen jar of hurt

Maybe I enjoy the climb,
Those stairs up to a faithless dive
And as I struggle over each minor crime
I look up and see his eyes

Now I join the species
In the inevitable decease of
Free will, and independence
With that ache for future happiness
To sit on that porch with iced tea, and two kids
And for the other hand not hiding in it’s palm an unlived plan,
To be tucked tight in the calloused grip of an honest man.

After

I lay here as naked as original sin
With no sheets to wrap in
I’m cut open again
And with the scent of my perfume still on your skin
You lay there as restless as you’ve ever been

I’m starting to learn how you break the mold
Pull open the stitches, this wounds getting old
If love’s about betting on idle hands left to hold
Then my bids on an object that’s already sold

Did you know that you pull me when you’re holding my hand?
And you move like you’re feet were never meant to stand?
And I can’t keep up with this pace that you’ve planned
You’re on your way to somewhere, and I live where I land

You’d almost think I couldn’t love you
If you ever kept still
My heart beats in motion
It can’t suppress what I will

There are no still-life lips that can swallow
This long, drawn-out pill

And I’m sorry, above everything
That I’m feeling this low
That what was stable is broken
And I know what I know

But love, it’s almost over
And I’ve got no room to grow
When you’re naked in morning
There is no afterglow

Incentive

Did you know that you’re the incentive for every breath?
Every bone I grew for you
Every knick that ever bled
Was in wait of love from you

No man has ever touched these lips
No hand has lingered on this skin
Or done what you have done to me
No man has ever been let in

For you I have laid on my own
On sheets I swear were made of stone
And cold were the limbs grown for you
From the skin through to the bone

For you I’ve been preserved so well
For you I’ve been a sealed design
Unraveled I will come for you
So your lips alone might call me, “Mine!”

Cured needless of these salts and scents
That aid the perishing from decline
I am kept just as I am
Till our lives can intertwine

A thousand year alone I’d wait
And like a child never grow
Just so that I might see your face
So you might know what I still know

That every bone I’ve grown is yours,
And these two lips, and these two eyes,
And these four limbs, what keeps my sins,
All within is all your prize

Inside

You’re not leaving anything
I’ve lived so long beneath your skin
I’ll still be licking your muscles from the inside
You can’t kick out what feeds within

And I’ve been cozy in your chest, my dear
And I’ve been drinking all the wine
That you poured to be rid of me
I absorb and you survive

And when you kiss her I will kiss her too
And when you speak I’ll tug each cord
And when you breathe I breathe it too
To taste each breathe I’ve so adored

I was warned that this would be:
You’d love less than I’d believed
So now I reap what I perceive:
Your love always belonged to me

I will sleep and you would hold me like
The womb you never filled
And I will wake inside this place
To sustain what must rebuild

And when I leave I’ll cut a hole
And tear out with heavy strides
Unrepaired, I’ll leave you there
Just as you have always been---
With nothing at all inside

Umbilical

Don’t I love how we always agree
What once was I now is We,
And umbilical-ly I’m living through
The very air he breathes for me?

What I want is past the point
And what I feel is locked and stored
In a quart-refrigerated,
In a frozen jar of hurt

Maybe I enjoy the climb,
Those stairs up to a faithless dive
And as I struggle over each minor crime
I look up and see his eyes

After

I lay here as naked as original sin
With no sheets to wrap in
I’m cut open again
And with the scent of my perfume still on your skin
You lay there as restless as you’ve ever been

I’m starting to learn how you break the mold
Pull open the stitches, this wounds getting old
If love’s about betting on idle hands left to hold
Then my bids on an object that’s already sold

You’d almost think I couldn’t love you
If you ever kept still
My heart beats in motion
It can’t suppress what I will

There are no still-life lips that can swallow
This long, drawn-out pill

And I’m sorry, above everything
That I’m feeling this low
That what was stable is broken
And I know what I know

But love, it’s almost over
And I’ve got no room to grow
When you’re naked in morning
There is no afterglow

Silence Means Consent

He says “silence means consent”
So is this alright?
Is this alright?

He says, “You ain’t felt nothing yet.”
So I am still.
I am still

“Waiting for regret?” He asks
I bite my tongue.
I feel my head
And the little beads of sweat
that slide, and dry
--then I forget

Him, I forget.

He says “silence means consent”
So is this alright?
Is this alright?

He says, “You ain’t felt nothing yet.”
So I am still.
I am still

“Waiting for regret?” He asks
I bite my tongue.
I feel my head
And the little beads of sweat
that slide, and dry
--then I forget

Him, I forget.

Debauching of Generosity

It’s the debauching of generosity
I think, just before I shake his hand
take the color from his tie,
shake the feet on which he’ll stand
drain the moisture from his palm
I’m going to make a god out of him
before he lets go, before long

There is a kindness in his eyes now,
a rarity I’ve claimed in his stare
What men in low ranking find in me,
it’s an art I could not share

There’s an integrity beneath his tongue now,
a dependancy from a taste of acclaim

Dissolved are the words around me
I now know nothing but his name
He doesn’t know what he means to me
because what he sees in me
he does not know

Debauching of Generosity

Dissolved are the words around me
I now know nothing but his name
He doesn’t know what he means to me
because what he sees in me
he does not know

A Stand

We’re gonna make this easy,
lets lock ourselves up,
in this strange room,
and you can cover my screaming mouth,
with your own,
and drowned out the words,
that are only a formality

So what if I feel like I’m going to die,
everything straining-- everything refusing,
so what if I feel tears in my eyes,
everything imploding-- everything moving

shut up body, shut up mind

we’re going to make this easy,
and your going to undress me,
and don’t say a word to me,
don’t speak a word to me

shut up mind, shut up mind

don’t even think you could break me,
don’t even think I’m so precious
bite at my lips, don’t skim with fingertips,
grab me, take me, own me

so my heart is beating so fast it provides the music
shut up body, shut up body

Later, smile, don’t stop
or everyone will see the
indescribable faces we made
an hour ago, how they stain our
lips, eyes and cheeks,
and make pictures of our impossibilities

A Stand

We’re gonna make this easy,
lets lock ourselves up,
in this strange room,
and you can cover my screaming mouth,
with your own,
and drowned out the words,
that are only a formality

So what if I feel like I’m going to die,
everything straining-- everything refusing,
so what if I feel tears in my eyes,
everything imploding-- everything moving

shut up body, shut up mind

we’re going to make this easy,
and your going to undress me,
and don’t say a word to me,
don’t speak a word to me

shut up mind, shut up mind

don’t even think you could break me,
don’t even think I’m so precious
bite at my lips, don’t skim with fingertips,
grab me, take me, own me

so my heart is beating so fast it provides the music
shut up body, shut up body

Later, smile, don’t stop
or everyone will see the
indescribable faces we made
an hour ago, how they stain our
lips, eyes and cheeks,
and make pictures of our impossibilities

A Child's Desires

Child your desires will eat you alive,
Surrender your position, and learn to survive,
This wanting is without reason, and without hope,
These things you dream of are not accomplishable

When you look at him-- do you see a family?
The one that was destroyed by the cruel hands of fate?
Will he gather you up and help you hold on to sanity?
Is he the one, to end your entire life’s wait?

Will he wipe away your tears, little one?
Will he see behind your eyes?
Study your every move,
Will someone finally notice you?

Would his lips end the longing that keeps you awake?
Would you hand over your virtue, for him to take?
Would it make a possession out of you?
Would it give you someone to belong to?

Has he seen you fall asleep, in your garden of denial?
Where you wake up not alone? Where you wake up not a child?
And roses gather round your wrist, and make you such simple promises?
Would you give in?

High up in your tower, do you let down your hair?
Wishing it was longer, and the world was more aware?
Have the dragons become your only friends?
Is that why you whisper your secrets to them?

Do the skies open up and angels descend?
Bring you words of comfort and premonitions of a happy end?
When you stumble over your shock, to stare and sit-

Do you close your eyes and believe any of it?

Love can not be built on your desires child,
Love can not be built on what’s missing,
When you complete the puzzle in your mind,
The picture will come and the light you’ll find
Will be sweeter than the imaginary lips, you find yourself kissing

A Child's Desires

Child your desires will eat you alive,
Surrender your position, and learn to survive,
This wanting is without reason, and without hope,
These things you dream of are not accomplishable

Will he wipe away your tears, little one?
Will he see behind your eyes?
Study your every move,
Will someone finally notice you?

Would his lips end the longing that keeps you awake?
Would you hand over your virtue, for him to take?
Would it make a possession out of you?
Would it give you someone to belong to?

High up in your tower, do you let down your hair?
Wishing it was longer, and the world was more aware?
Have the dragons become your only friends?
Is that why you whisper your secrets to them?

Do the skies open up and angels descend?
Bring you words of comfort and premonitions of a happy end?
When you stumble over your shock, to stare and sit-

Do you close your eyes and believe any of it?

Blind Eye

Confusing my light switch into exposing the offensive
Uncover the shadows and show the unseen
Won’t you believe? I’ve been saying it all along

Come out from under the cover
I swear whoever lead you on has been wrong,
If they said you weren’t beautiful

Synthesized light, doesn’t do you justice
And just in case you were wondering, even I don’t feel worth it
When I’m with you

I want to tear him to shreds
Rip his judgements out of our beds
Force feed him the damage

That you’ve been so used to
Let him know there’s no one better than you

And he can’t have you, and him I can’t kill
Because these lies have lingered here
Long before my truth will

I’m forever yours, whenever you come to your senses
Blend these emotions for me into your sentences
Make you see the reflection I do
Its ego, I’m used to
He used you
I’ve been true

Why so undecided? So unconvinced?
Everywhere you bought that trash
Could you kiss along my lips?

I can only love you, if you see what I do
I can only know you, when you hear what is true

Along came the spiders who got washed out by the rain
Same came for my presence, I’ll take away your pain.